Beautifu1Disaster

As the sun kisses darkness You stare up into the night You spread your wings But you cannot fly You want to be dead But you will not die You pretend not to see But you catch his eye You have given up now But yet you still try When everything is wrong Could something be right

You buried the knife in the wrong body You held a grudge against your soul You smiled to create simple copy Of happiness and control You cried to create your prison's bars You bled to color the concrete floor You smiled when you felt the pain Of loneliness and war You could not run to escape your demons You enjoyed the company in the night You smiled when they spoke to you Of escape and flight You watch them dress in their black attire You hear them judge your private tragedy "But she always smiled," they whisper They never knew that was the key

Darling You gamble your life When you should fear the reaper Where my touch is warm, his grip is cold You are too young for death to be your keeper Darling You are just an angel That has fallen far from grace You quietly hum a tune of twilights doomed With scars you wish you could erase Darling You are only human And I have made the same mistakes Try holding my hand instead of the blade Your beautiful life I refuse to forsake

I do not mean to be a critic But your gold has lost its shine Your spotlight has since dimmed Though I hear you are doing fine So why the ignorance now You seem callous like your hands The ones I thought were gentle The ones I thought would understand I do not think you are a cynic Maybe just bent on the inside Too hurt to trust too easily And instead you choose to hide You seem a bit reclusive So why not say hello again I only wanted to be there to listen I only wanted to be your friend

Just look at us now Coming loose at the seams This is real life But it is also a dream When everything happens To tear us apart Remember every ending Is to us a new start With one needle We can take both our lives And with the other Heal the wounds of a knife Because before we can rise We both must fall Like before we can walk We first learn to crawl

I used to paint pictures On my own delicate, clean skin Some crimson lines here and there Convinced I could never win Then I painted more pictures Clear and subtle like rain drops Streaming down this forlorn face Waiting for the pain to stop But you stitched me back together With a needle and some thread So I painted a pretty picture Of a bird in black ink instead

Look into the distance When tears burn your eyes Pay heed to your demons Tell everyone you are fine And paint on that smile While you dance in the sun Honey, no one will notice Where your soul has gone

Kind touch tainted with lethality Sweet warmth turned to an icy stare Cursed is the moment I walked up to you And then lived to taste your poison unaware Left haunted by the lies you twisted Smoldering with an appetite for revenge Watch me burn all our bridges to the ground This stitched up heart only seeks to avenge If you have an excuse let me hear it Before I take your last chance to lie Left to die after you stole my breath away Only to return to make you pay for your crimes

Those angel eyes Your dark desguise This masquerade of heart break A knife to the flesh A blood oath Confess To the wrongs you took a part in Some twisted lies Absent alibis And a night too cold to feel Dissolve in the dark Now invisible Marked To feel the pain you wrought me Burn these skies A red sun will rise The mark of one bent on revenge For what you left Much bitterness Contempt I will haunt you on the inside

It used to be I had no time for cliches Those overrated day dreams of normality I loathed them I avoided them But what comes is what will be I fell away just to fall right back in Like a strange devotion to a brutal love I left it I missed it Needed it when push came to shove